Penat

Penat.

Baru habis kemas barang pindah rumah. Tu pun belum habis lagi! Cuti hari buruh ni, masih kena jadi buruh angkat barang! Hadoi!

Aku benci pindah rumah sebenarnya! 

Aku ingat, imt is the last place I work with. Making K.D as my last staying place until I bought my own house. Rupanya ada lagi Ansar and moving to P.H! Well let's hope the same this time. Semoga aku dapat beli rumah cepat-cepat, so the next house I move is exactly my own house! Permanent!

Penat juga, baru balik dari Langkawi last week, then rushing to Penang and Kedah, another series of audit. Tapi this time tak hectic sangat, satu hari 2 outlet je. And diorang pun dah buat upgrading notes from their brother's so tak banyak yang nak dibisingkan. The brother's pun dah dapat certification last Friday, hasil kabel dasar laut mereka dan peluh ketiak kami auditors! haha

Anyway, this Friday ada makan-makan kat KLCC with the brother's and we are invited, tapi aku rasa aku malas nak datang. Kenapa? Sebab aku memang malas pergi event! hihihi

And as I speaking, aku nak 'retire' for a while dari kerja audit-audit sebab the last aku pergi, aku rasa slacking! So aku rasa aku nak bagi orang lain pergi next time, sampailah aku punya mood dan kesungguhan datang balik. If not, aku rasa memang tak ikhlas sangat. Bila tak ikhlas, kerja pun main-main. Tak baik, kan? 

Langkawi, the land of magic. Kot? Aku rasalah..aku akhirnya jejak kaki juga ke pulau itu sedangkan kalau ikut perancangan, aku nak save it for honeymoon! Ahaha! Jauh kan berangan! 

It's really a nice place, langit dan tumbuhan kat situ sangat biru dan hijau dari biasa! Rasa lain sangat. Aku memang suka nature! This one day trip, walau bagai mana pun tak mencapai sasaran, kabel car under yearly maintenance, so tak boleh pergi! Sedey! 

Tu tandanya, kena datang lagi! hehe

Ok, next post aku citer lebih detail. Sekarang dah pukul 1.30am, so aku nak berehat :) 

Penat!

Upgrading work in progress...

Dah beberapa hari tak menulis! Hari ni kali pertama aku terjaga malam dan meneruskan rutin biasa aku macam sebelum-sebelum ni kat K.D bila terjaga ~ menulis atau pun update apa-apa benda peribadi yang aku tak sempat buat.

Sebenarnya kat P.H, sejak awal bulan ni, aku tak tidur dengan lena. Sama ada aku tak tido-tido sampailah menjelang 4am atau pun aku akan terjaga sekitar 4am dan tak boleh tido semula. Puaslah aku pusing kanan-kiri, tapi memang mata tak mahu pejam. Dan bila sampai ofis, AGM sound mata stim!

Hmm..tempat baru, mungkin!

Selalu bila kat K.D, terjaga macam ni aku memang akan bangun dan buat apa-apa yang patut. Kadang-kadang aku tidur balik! Tu yang hari-hari lambat sampai ofis! haha Tapi sekarang, tidak lagi! Ceh! Walau pun aku masih lambat sekali sekala, tapi bukan sebab aku sengaja lambat macam dulu, melainkan lambat sebab tunggu para penumpang kylie :)

Tak kisah sangat, dulu selalu rasa, ala bukan ada orang naik pun kylie. So sekarang dah ada few penumpang yang carpool skali, tak delah kylie bosan bawa aku jek hari-hari! ngeh3 And soon, kalau pindah rumah flat tu lagi lah ramai yang carpool! Mungkin serumah..Tak kisahlah. The more, the merrier :) Bila lagi pun... *Tanda-tanda awal kylie akan bercuti panjang? :0

Semoga membawa TUAH seperti namanya; PREVE! :D

Banyak betul benda nak plan lately. Pasal kerja dah tentu, tapi aku tak kisah sangat. Sebab so far, aku suka. Cuma mungkin bila something tu dah bertangguh lama sangat, aku jadi menyampah nak mula balik! Aku kan lebih excited to finish great for short term project. Kalau long term tu, rasa demotivated giler! Rasa kalau janji siap, ok lah tu! haha

Cakap pasal plan, ada banyak pula barang nak kena beli. Owh! Telifon pun mula menunjukkan tanda-tanda bateri kong tahap serius. Cas dari malam sampai pagi pun, boleh 17% jek! Ini baru namanya buang karan! Tapi survey telifon sejak beberapa bulan lepas, masih gagal menemui telifon yang betul-betul idaman hati! Ternyata, nilai wang telah merosot sangat teruk untuk nilaian teknologi! RM500 tak bermakna apa-apa!

Ops! Review terbongkar!

Untuk rumah baru, bercadang nak beli washing machine. Saya pemalas basuh baju pakai tangan! Haha Bukan apa, sebenarnya kalau difikirkan, logik juga. I'm not getting younger each year, tapi downgrading kena basuh baju pakai tangan balik? Sure bukan sesuatu yang baik. Seperti mana sampai bila harus aku tidur beralaskan tilam 3 inci? Begitulah satu masa nanti, timbul soal, tak kan nak selamanya menyewa rumah orang lain?

My dream loft apartment! >_*

Jadi, itu sedikit sebanyak update kebelakangan ini. Masih sibuk, sebab banyak keputusan nak kena buat. Aku sangat mementingkan win-win situation, jadi, aku memang akan ambil sedikit masa dalam membuat keputusan. Janji, akhirnya, aku happy :)

So, gambatte to me and all charming lady out there who's struggling daily to prove who they are! :)

Don't mess with me!

This is going to be a sad post :) I made my decision, I'll leave this new house at P.H because I don't suit here!
*I told you, I don't like to be disturb!

So I have few option, either to continue my stay at K.D but opt for another way of transportation or find somewhere else nearby P.H, anywhere, BUT this stupid house!

I think human got face, pride, shame etc which make them understand if they were not likes or something, but I just don't get how on earth this people so prudent on challenging other people's privacy! So fine, be it. I take what matter most. If I can't be happy coming back home, I shouldn't stay there!

Money can be work on, what matter is I'm happy or at least at peace!

Instinct

Dalam bahasa melayu dipanggil gerak hati. Mungkin kurang tepat, sebab menurut wikipedia perkataan yang lebih sesuai ialah Intuition. Tapi apa yang aku bebelkan kejap lagi adalah pengalaman sebenar, tapi bukan sebarang kajian. Jadi sesiapa yang rajin, bolehlah menjalankan kajian keatas perkara ini dengan lebih lanjut...

Gerak hati antara family atau pun ahli keluarga adalah biasa. Jelas, mungkin sebabnya kerana kita ada susur galur yang sama. Garis darah yang sama, emak dan bapa yang sama. Logik, kerana biasanya ibu ada gerak hati yang sangat kuat pada anak-anaknya. Mungkin kerana ibu punya lebih banyak kasih sayang :) Walau pun begitu, bapa dan adik beradik juga punya gerak hati yang kuat. Kembar mungkin lebih lagi!

Gerak hati boleh difahami secara semula jadi, tanpa perlu bertanya. Contohnya aku sendiri pernah mengalami intuisi yang kuat masa aku tingkatan 2. Masa tu tak ada lagi handphone, jadi satu-satu cara aku tahu apa-apa perkembangan adalah dengan telifon publik. Masa tu dah dekat cuti hujung tahun, rasa dalam minggu terakhir. Tapi masih berbaki beberapa hari.

Aku tak tahu kenapa, tapi aku sangat sibuk kemas barang. Dah siap packing walau pun masih ada beberapa hari sekolah. Rupanya nenek aku dah tak ada, pada hari yang aku sibuk kemas barang! Aku memang tak sempat jenguk dia, kerana aku hanya balik beberapa hari kemudian.

Masa aku pergi Beijing, malam pertama aku mimpi parents aku. Walaupun aku dah beritahu aku nak fly sekian-sekian tarikh, dan sebelum flight tu aku ada call inform, aku tak pasti kenapa aku mimpi parents aku. Selalunya bila aku mimpi diorang, aku akan balik kampung weekend tu!

Tapi mengenangkan yang aku dah pun beritahu etc aku tak call balik pun. Dan hanya balik kampung beberapa minggu selepas tu, sebab belum ada masa free. Rupanya mak aku tak sihat.

click here :)

Tapi semua tu boleh difahami. Kecuali ini...

Sehari sebelum hari kejadian, aku top up telifon RM30! Sesuatu yang jarang aku buat masa belajar dulu. Aku bukan banyak call pun, tapi petang tu aku tak pasti kenapa, aku beli top up, dengan 'sesuatu' ingatan di belakang kepala tentang dia. Pada hari kejadian, aku ada test, tapi aku sungguh-sungguh tak ada perasaan nak study! Seharian aku rasa kosong yang amat.

Pada masa kejadian, jari aku tersepit pintu bilik! Aku sendiri pelik, sepanjang 4 tahun gunakan pintu kat Mawar, tak pernah sekali pun jari aku tersepit kecuali petang itu! Dan petang kejadian, sinar matahari petang yang menyuluh tapat ke muka aku, tiba-tiba membawa ingatan padanya. Rupanya dia dah pergi jauh, jauh yang aku tak boleh kejar lagi!

Itu dulu, sekarang lain pula.

Kita selalu gaduh! Selalu juga baik semula. Hampir tawar hati aku, sebab kau selalu buat-buat tak tahu yang kau tu bersalah! Hinggalah terbaru, dan aku rasa nak biarkan je kau hanyut pergi, macam mana kau hanyut sampai, kali pertama dulu.    

Tapi malam tadi aku tulis sesuatu tentang kau, dan tadi kau dengan muka tak bersalah menyapa aku balik. Kenapa kau kejam sangat eh? Nasib baik aku tak gunakan ayat keramat, yang kau suka cakap bila kau tak puas hati dengan sesuatu - Go to he**

Ada satu petang, yang sibuk. Dah lewat, tapi aku masih belum mahu balik. Sebenarnya dah nak balik, dah kemas, tapi aku tunggu kau cakap sesuatu. Dalam hati aku asyik kata, kau balik, aku pun balik. Tiba-tiba kau cakap sesuatu! Muka aku merah, jalan jem pun tak apa, aku drive sambil senyum lebar!

Kau pun selalu boleh teka tentang aku. Bila aku tanya mana kau tahu, kau cakap 'instinct'.

Kenapa eh? Kita ada instinct nih?

check here :)

Love is..

Love can be really amusing! Love can be really weird thing!

I just stay away from my beloved Kota Damansara for the past one week. The first day away was like 'Arghhh'! I can't sleep at night! Missing my old pillow and bunky-smelly-bed! Aww! Thou here I got a newly bought bed with few inch mattress, it's just don't compare!

Imagine I have to stay away for a week, away from my hobbies, my liking, my world in that small little room of mine in K.D! Without mat-top as well! I felt I grow older faster than anything! And guess what, Friday seem so long to reach!

But finally, Friday come and I enthusiastically packing everything and drive back to K.D as soon as 6pm! With broad smile :D I took the longest route, I don't mind the jammed, I sang aloud with the radio! The feeling was GREAT! Seeing all the lights left and right of the road, it really made me happy!

I think P.H wasn't the place for me! Not only that, the new house owner and surrounding made me irritated as well! Told you, she was an old lady. Told you also, I have to learn to be patient. But, honestly, I just can't! Maybe I was too kind, that is the problem!

I regret being too kind!

Fine, my resolution here is, let me be tough a little. I said Yes, when it yes. But No, most of the time! I'm renting here, not automatically become her car- four driver etc except for urgent cases, which obviously NOT! I have my life, my activity, and she is NOT automatically become my mother!

I'll let my word straight, I don't care! If thing don't change, I knew what next! Lots more room available for me out there!

*I'm writing in P.H now, the second week, and guess how many times she already knock on my door asking me to send her somewhere! Just because her relative ask for her help, doesn't mean I'm their relatives as well!  

**Told you, don't disturb me!


 

Not April Fool

Yeay! It's April! :)

Writing in the crispy Sunday morning of April 1st after been about 31 days on March! It's a regular thing but for me time seem so slow, and I'm so glad that it's finally move to another month. A second quarter of 2012 :)

No April fool whatever :) And as you see, I change the look of the blog few days ago, re-branding :) I hope it also get better in terms of content and functionality. The bird on the park just outside my window are so happily chirping marking the new day, and the speaker from the nearby mosque is airing a recorded ceramah which I don't clearly understand a word.

I'll be moving to somewhere nearby my work place soon. After almost 6 month being employee with the most distance from the office, about 30km away. The decision seem so drastic I couldn't believe I really made it. I like everything about my house now, except that it's a bit far from the office. Thou I enjoy the distance (I use it to think and plan my day in the morning and reflect in the afternoon!), it burns a hole in my pocket too! haha

I'm trying (again) to build my cash, and saving lots for the future house :) Speaking of the house, think I can relate why I make the drastic decision to move although this place had been my everything since 2 years ago :) My new house owner is a single mother, I don't know she really had kids or not (because I never seen), and things when living with elders is very much about tolerance.

It made me think of my own mother, I have to deal with her slow movement, worries, too careful etc But yeah, they were old. And I can't help but to think of my own condition if I ever reach their ages now! And most importantly, I will want more than one kid! And I don't want to grow old alone! hahaha It's funny I said this, but yes, it's true. I don't want to be old alone.

Allah must have plan this and His reason is for me to learn some few things before I live with my mom later, once I have the house. And so I have time to save my money, and also some other things which are not directly related, like why a decision is so sudden. :) Think I'm getting mature now :) My decision is more clear and I'm more careful taking and planning my steps :)  

Love is the word used to label the sexual excitement of the young, the habituation of the middle-aged, and the mutual dependence of the old ~ John Ciardi