Dangerous liaison

I've been missed! haha

Get back to the office after a total of four days leave including two days MC and the weekend, I was greeted with "Where you go? Long time no see?" from my office-mates. Shame to admit that I have a muscle cramp due to my latest love affair with nature! haha

Anyway, this are some of the special feel I got on this new place. I miss them when away and they miss me too! wahaha Serious, I thought it's just an unfamiliar feeling that you feel when you been away for sometimes and when you see them again, you feel like you 'miss' them. But it's not. It's a feeling like we're big family. We don't really chat-up a lot but we do know each other. Well, maybe our less quantity is also a factor. But that is how I honestly feel :D

So my current love affairs is to hiking and camping and outdoors! After last time in Bukit Tabur, I feel really enjoy it and hope to get involve weekly! haha Don't worry boss, I make sure no MC after this! haha

Anyway nature is really my thing from the beginning. Outdoor activities requiring me to climb, crossing water, camping, camp-fire, walking deep into the jungle etc was my favorite but I don't like caves! I hate breathing inside cave because I thought it was dirty and all the dust will get into my system! Plus cave is dark place! Scary, with all the stalagmite or stalactite and I feel gross looking at the wet rock! It remind me of our old-toilet-ceiling during the hostel time! Euw..

Once during my study, we went to camping at Wang Kelian, Perlis. We have to dive into the cave there and thanks to the dark condition, I did't see what colour of the water that we have to cross in a shallow hole about my size! It's chilling cold and when we out to the light, I can see how dirty our cloth are!

But it was great experience :) We play war with our senior in the middle of the night, where most of us fall sleep and didn't care to look after our fortress! We suppose to be soaked in the waterfall that night but instead the punishment reduce to just being throw a splash of that chilling-water in the middle of the night! However the most memorable for me was to carry a few kilos of bag, walking to the campsite! I think I almost faint!

So now the memories rewind again. I'm looking forward to do it weekly basis. So far I have gather a list of hills around Selangor, KL and Negri Sembilan to tackle first. Then small mountain, and finally Kinabalu next year! :D

Cant wait to start! And I know two of my friends also cant wait to complete this list! :D  

if there's heaven on earth

I'm homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....!!!!

Guest what? My mom was really a mind-reader! She cook chicken soup for our dinner tonight! Being all muscle stiffed since the hiking made my tongue goes tasteless on food and all I'm thinking of is a chicken soup since yesterday. Told you, she really can read my mind! :)

To complete my visit to this 'heaven' there's a red sambal to accompany my journey :) Wow! I allow my diet to cheat tonight :D

To my dad, get well soon..his left hand is swollen but getting better. I know a really good medicine ~ I'm home :)
(...hehehehehhe...true lar!)

alien orange

Ok, what should I rebel about today? Other than my painful thigh and shoulder and a cut and bruise on my arm as a result of my effort to climb Bukit Tabur near Klang Gate, when most Malaysian enjoy their Deepavali holiday...

I enjoy the climb, thou I'm not the fittest yet I'm not the weakest soul! haha
Evident 1: I 'brushed' away a hungry leeches (hmm..hungry for bloody breakfast maybe?) trying to climb my trousers, when I'm usually hate leeches and it's descendant and try hard to avoid them in any condition!
Evident 2: I didn't squeak a little thou the scenery from the top might scare a bit. (maybe I care less about that, since I try to "motivate" myself with thoughts of cool-red-sweet-water melon juice! :0 )
Evident 3: I'm approved to be spider-man far relatives, since I just know how to climb those rocks!!
Evident 4: I'm rocks!! HAHAHAHA

alien orange conquer bukit tabur! :D

Ok-ok, enough with that...honestly it scare me since next year I'm planning to conquer mount Kinabalu. But with the latest experience, I'm kinda freak a bit ~ will I make it? ermmm...aaaa....ummm

Last night was a freezing night since I'm trying to sooth the muscle with yoko-yoko (famous brand, anyone know?). It help but I can't wake up in the morning! It's like waist down is paralyzed and since both shoulder also too tight, I can't support my body weight. It make my signal seem lost-in-transmission to move my muscle.

Apart from that, there's one 'magic' thing happen while we have a drink 'celebrating' our victory. Your picture pop-out as my screen saver! I remember since what had happen last time, I swore won't see your picture anymore what's more to put it as my screen saver? But ok, it's what magic is...I just don't know what it mean especially when I'm potentially thinking to replace you, during that time!

My mind goes to you before, while and after the climb. I know you aren't fan of outdoors. I just hope it give me some good 'inspiration' while doing some stupid stuff when anyone else (especially you!) is still sleeping, perhaps!

Alright, finally, I'll treat my kylie with good polish, service, tyre, front light and rear bumper change this weekend since I'm salaried!!!! Special Thanks to my lovely kylie for all the good ride and for being my bestest friend! I love you so much...muah3x

my BESTest friend, Kylie :D

human, take me to your leader!

I remember already what I want to write previously! It's about Bill Rancic. Who do not know this guy??

He's married to Giuliana and have their own show Giuliana & Bill on channel E! I enjoy watching the show because I like Bill personality and I think they both is a sweet couple. Thou Bill know just a few Italian words, they still make a great couple and can work together most of the time.

What I like about Bill is that he is successful at young age. He's business minded people and workaholic. He travel a lots for business and charity purpose. He talk business well and he carry on job well done. He's matured person with matured decision but sometimes he can make people around him laugh as well! For me he is a real talented Project Manager - that's what I see in The Apprentice!

I felt jealous since he seems to have it all, make all he touch turn to gold (really??), but I must say it's great because I have a walking model! I'm going to adore him and his management style. And not too much to say that I don't mind marrying someone like him! AHAHAHA (I'm not joking! :D He likes kids too!)

Ok, that's about Bill. You may want to visit his site here http://billrancic.com/

Look how talented, charismatic he is.... :0

Ok, that's about Bill. Now about me...

Well the wrap up session was nothing much actually. It's just a few things my boss want to share with all the leader about our company in the future. But hey! Did I say my boss call in the leader?

Ahahaha that's making me trembling inside! Because I'm one of the leader at Ansar! Can you imagine that! Ow-ow They better prepare to where will I lead them! haha

Honestly I'm not a good, naturally talented leader. I lead passively thou I might have great idea. I remember once when I was a primary school student, I was make a leader in a group of few people. We have to find 'harta karun' by following a map. Guess what? Because I'm such an honest leader, I follow the route exactly thou we can use short cut! And since, I know I'm bad on leading! haha

Call me phobia of failure, or simply phobia being socially harass, that was me. Not only that, I later realize there's few other thing I avoid because I once failed doing it! I have a phobia to fail on it over again..poor me! :(

But ok, here I'm again. Been given a chance to correct myself. Being accepted, being pointed up as leader where I'm a hard-core follower; it's such a big thing to me! And my boss want us to be part of the solution, not the problem. Part of the success, not the failure. I'm honored :)

I wish to give as much as I can to the company. It's easier and so much fun when your boss's vision is exactly just like yours! Yeah, exactly!

So let's start with blue ocean strategy for the cafe now..then the break even..then the staff..then the renovation..then the ....bla bla bla

Hey Bill, want to follow me to photocopy shop? Let me photocopy 'you'! :D Anyway, I wish my boss's vision is going to be success and  I hope I can be one of the leader who make it happen! The pioneer!  

sake of my heart

This morning while driving to work, there's something that I want to share with you all. I think it's a great topic, but I don't remember anymore! haha

Anyway, nothing much to rebel about nowadays. Everything went on smooth and slow and I'm not so enjoying the moment. The online business plan still not finish, now at the stage of financial planning and discussion. The wrap up session is this Wednesday, in my boss house!

What to say...we have a very "luxury-baby" in our team! And it's NOT me, ok..

Beside that, nothing much to chase after. I'm now in the diet zone again..hihi trying to loose more weight, avoid chicken and meat for these while, try to drink more plain water, snacking on fruits and vege instead of junk, try to exercise daily for at least one hour etc So far, DAY 1 success! HAHAHAHA

Yup, a long way to go. Hopefully I manage to do it. The current dateline is end of Nov for 'NO' to chicken and meat program. The rest should be continue...

Now I'm thinking of drinking juice, fresh epal! ahhhhhhh...and ever wonder how celery juice might taste? Oh ya, another thing tomato soup, anyone?  

yumm3x!

a nice-spell-date!

Ops! It's not about dating! hahahaha Don't get it wrong...It's about a date which I think I will do another face-lift for my life! I'll informed further but let's go to the hint *wink

Last week while still busy preparing for the business plan, my sister contacted me and ask if I would like to do some face-lift. I'm still unsure since it's never come to my mind because I think I got other important thing to do than that. But suddenly an idea come cross my mind. What if I can get something better or newer with the current cost? Ok, maybe a little bit increase?

I think it's a good idea because there's a value in the trade. The value in the newer things cushion the little bit increase I have to bear. So I think, it should be worth to study further.

But then another question come to my mind. Which or what brand should replace the older brand? Which will give value, give pleasure, give satisfaction? A little bit pride but still modest. Most importantly, satisfy the need instead of want. Huu? Tough choice! Especially it should just satisfy the need, not the bigger wants!

Then a recent chit-chat with kak yatie give some idea after some sms's with my brother about the same question; which brand? And tonight I sit down and think again and surf again (thou preliminary I decided NOT to continue with the trade!). Then come the nice date, nice number bla bla bla

So I think, I want to give a try. Maybe tomorrow I let my brother know of my intention, especially on the date. So we can plan further and faster about it since the date is coming nearer, about a month from now! I think you all clear on it already? Ok, another hint...it should spell something like this; 832-27-11.11.11-WVW-red/orange

Hahahahaha...got it? *let's pray it'll be real! :)

tagline

So tomorrow will be the day. The brainwash day! I'm surely nervous since I'll chair the meeting tomorrow with whatever findings I have. Hopefully it's enough information to be presented!

Apart from that, tonight will be my third night sleep-less to do some extra modification to what I have at hand. I hope by next week, or practically this Friday, when the brainwash session end, everything wrap-up nicely! And I can move on with pride from there. Carrying out what's been documented, drawing out the early plan as schedule on a daily basis!

Huuu..can't wait! But it's not even started yet! Arghhhh....

It's kinda good for me because I'm given this opportunity to do what I like. Management! Just hate the early stage...hihihi And the unwanted 'sound effect' (soseh-soseh!). Anyway, dispute, is something I have to learn how to deal with professionally, if I want to be mature! kakaaka So no more run and hide! (*No more ms little sunshine...)

Ops! It's my surprise turn today to deliver some 'story' or tazkirah after asar prayer today! My turn is suppose to be tomorrow but since Business unit all went out tomorrow, it's bring forward today! Aaaa...

I'm blur a while because I don't know where and how to start but then went smooth since I already plan since last week. At least I plan on what subject will I share with the rest of the office! I choose my recent read book, How Starbuck Save My Life by Micheal Gill. I love the book and I felt closed to the real story inside, therefore I can easily understand the story flow and why I like it so much.

It's about Micheal, the writer, who discover a new world working with Starbuck. The working environment which so please him and very much different from the corporate world he used to be. The life lesson along his daily job, as someone who drink latte to someone who serve it. It's like he fall from grace. But I like the spirit (or phobia of being fired again!) that push him. It's his pushing factor!

He made it and make friends out of it. Real friends who care about him. He get back his children whom he once take less care since he so immersed with his job. He might not become 'Master of the Universe' again but he live peacefully in his small apartment now then his 16-bedroom mansion where he grew up.

The lesson here is 'you are what you think about yourself'. Micheal know he's already old and working at Starbuck is the only choice he have. He need to support at least he, himself. So he try to beat the odd. He brave the register machine thou he so afraid of numbers. He take pride in his job and make gesture with his customer and workmate. He have good attitude besides his fall from grace. He try to be positive thou sometimes situation seem not at his side.

Truth is, life is like that. We will not be at the same place forever. Must have up and down, so you'll appreciate what you have. But only if you want to change for the better. There's some people who quit after the very first try they failed. But I believe, lots more people keep on trying. Gambatte! This is what we all want, someone who dare to fail, just to raise again!

Wow! I speak like a motivator now! Haha Anyway I consider the 'soseh-soseh' as my challenge here. Good, I have competitor! So I will not easily feel comfortable with what I have. Anyway, I'm only diploma holder from UiTM compared to them whose x-MMU or x-MSU. I din't attend weekly Women Business Club. I don't have siblings driving Mercedes because they do MLM bla bla bla

But anyway, I once have my own failed mushroom 'factory', my failed MLM investment, my already-go-to- site-visit-level to open a fish pond, a laughed idea to have a cow and poultry farm next to my house bla bla bla

Best is, Go Sandy, Go! Go reach out what you want!



Erk...But I don't remember involve in cheerleading! HAHAHA

soseh-soseh

O-o..got nothing to say! Lately seem so slow or maybe I'm a slow thinker lately..haha Still, there's a lot for me to do and catch up with, but I seem too free to care of what will happen if I don't catch it up! Miss my old-self who is so spirited to achieve lots in her life...!

Been wandering around some potential supplier and competitor for the project since last Friday. For me it's a great opportunity to know and see what's around. Get some real input and so I have more strong vision of what our project should be.

But today heard some 'soseh-soseh' that what I do is costing. Sure it's a cost. Even if you sit on your bum all day and talking big about cost IS a cost! Think your pay for one day means for what? The company invest in me and I must do something to raise their investment value..To cut cost doesn't necessarily mean you stay indoor! C'mon, we're business division people...! Never heard of "no pain, no gain" aa?

Consider what I do as doing some research. Research is very necessary in planning. Planning mean you must have lots of input. Where you'll get your input if not going out? Yes, internet help a lot but for the past few weeks since I join in, since our 'melepas batuk di tangga bookmark' passed around; is there any feedback? Anyone call back to advertise freely with us? NO!

We're team member the last time I check, but when I ask you to do some rough plan for our web sales promotion 2012, you point me out to do it myself. When I ask to create a sample point card we'll use to woe customer, you say wait until confirm. So this is the dilemma of "pure breed" company...everything wait..wait...wait...then talk big as if you know so well and other's don't.

I tell you what, why don't you take over then? You sound so know-how about everything..you so great since you attend "women business club" discussion weekly. C'mon, you already screaming for help with the task at your hand as if the task cost you your own money! Still fuss about other people's project cost? Better you draft my instruction to plan the sales promo for next year, it is better than worrying about my project cost!  

I try to play good, but don't play-play..I can be means too!

shopping dot net

hahahahahaa...what a lovely weekend!! Doing shopping for two most wanted item without even have to drive kylie out on the road..! ngeh3

I'm buying stuff via online. Been some times not involve in this kind of habit but this weekend :D Spend like most of the day scrolling over the net for what's best until finally decided to click 'buy' on those two items. Hopefully both satisfying as their display...

Will be involve with online business myself, very soon, I think today experience confirm back to me how it feels buying something without have to see or touch or smell the real stuff. I think some item can, but obviously especially for women, most item not suitable sold online! hehe we're fussy creature, ok?

So what or how to woe potential customer then? For me, picture speak louder then all the words since I hate the fine-print sometimes! Apart from that pricing and the delivery cost. It's just not worthy and obviously cheating if the delivery cost is more than RM10 because the min 500g (first below 2KG) parcel by Pos Malaysia is only RM3.50 (check the rate here) http://www.pos.com.my/pos/services/fast_mail/service/domestic/nextday.aspx

The price is something hard to justified unless you really lucky like me! Because I found a website selling the same item at twice the price on the other website! hmmm....something not really nice there..

But it's up to you. As I say, some item is definitely ok to be sold online. While some is still not. But who know, once you have built a stronger relationship with the seller, agree that after some trade with them, they can be trusted; why not? It save petrol, time, and it will make you even lazier! haha

This is what I do usually before shop for something. I will study the item first. What's the spec, the price range, where can I easily get it, compare with other spec if necessary etc I must made myself clear and totally understand the item first, then only I decided to buy. It's a long process but it's give me fully satisfaction.

That's why it's hard to resist once I decided to buy something, since I already know by heart about the item! hehe

queen of my heart

I'm happy today, I want to write more than one post! yieehhhheeee...

I miss my mom today, lately and everyday lately. Don't get the chances to talk to her yet, thou keep on making mind notes to call her after work etc Anyway just a thoughts from sermon this morning; I hope if it's time for my parents to leave this world, we, all their children, will take charge of the task bathing and preparing them, right till their body laid to rest. NOT anyone else. NOT our neighbors. Not our uncle, auntie, cousin etc

I hope we all brave enough, care enough, strong enough; to act as our final obligation as their children to them. It's sure saddest thing on life, but I hope we all realized it is our last respect to two most influential people in our life whom we owe so much and can never repay.

If my dad is my hero, my mom is the queen of my heart! :D   

I wish all mommy in the world,

a happy, healthy and ocean of patience in carrying their job as real-human molder! 

Especially my mom, love you, muah3 :D 

He who listen

Arghhh...it's turn to write in full English! Ok-ok I'll try my best and right now, I'm trying to write in proper English. Another thing to do with my work now :D

I went to work this morning with uncomfortable feeling in my heart due to few unsettle issues. The first is sure the money lending thing! I hate talk about this cause it's only making me mad!! And another thing is my Mat Top. The clicking-weird-sound detected. It's from the fan.

Last night after work I quickly rushed to Giant and buy some PC tools like all size screwdriver (31-in-1 Electro Screwdriver Set! hah..don't play-play ha...!). I like the tools because it's so handy and useful. And one thing you should know about me is, I'm salivating by the thoughts of unscrewing with tools like this!! HAHA Hey! I like DIY ok..

Without very much hesitation I brave myself (which is my very first time!) opening the back of any laptop! The voice of the techie-girl in my office says "Berani ke kak? Component dalam tu kecik-kecik la..!" play aloud in my mind, but they can't deny my burning desire to find out what really happen behind my lappy and from where is that weird sound comes from!

TADA...the fan is so dusty and dirty it's like a never-scrub-toilet-wall!! Euww...it's mossy I think! Because the dust is green, not only black! HAHAHAAHA (Euwww at the same time!). I carefully take it off and clean it till shiny! Erm..kidding-lah! I just clean it, till no more dust, wipe every blade and the edges etc

I put it back, then start mat top in full hope the problem settle. But the clicking sound is still there as if my effort cleaning and scrubbing the 'moss' are wasteful. Ok, I give up. I'll just go and buy a new fan tomorrow. After that, yeay -- mat top will operate in silence again..!

So today I almost thought about not coming to work because I want to go find new fan for mat top and settle the issue. I was practically like this when there is any problem with any of my possession I'm closed with! Closed here mean I'm attached to it almost all the time ler..like my kylie, mat top, handphone (the only thing without name yet - caused I plan to sell it right after I bought it. So I forget to name it..! haha Sorry!)

That is why today I come to work with pretty heavy face, like my kids got fever! When my kids is my mat top, a laptop actually! ahahah Plus with the other problem I stated above, my face become even heavy. My heart still bleed with the thoughts about that 'moron creature'! bla bla bla I bump with the same ustaz I met on my first day at Ansar on the door, but say nothing until during the ceramah..

So here is the sweetness in Him. Today's topic is about being a better muslim and as soon as the ustaz start his sermon, everything ustaz say is very much related to me, what had just happened, how I feel about it or how I feel little when I have no place to turn to! At some point, I almost cry because it's like 'someone' console your hot-hardened-scared-heart by a caring and tender words. But best of all, I never let anyone know how painful it was, but He knew about it and sooth my pain! Just a day after! How quick He was..!

One of the point is 'forgive" and another point is "let it go" (redha). To 'let it go' after such painful is sure very difficult but He always there and always listen. He always fair and always kind. Just let Him deal with anyone who try to make trouble to you. Consider it as a test, insyaAllah He will give plenty more better things if we open our heart and let Him, the Master, do as He please. There is a great rewards for our patience and remember He loves it when His slaves ask and bend down on Him.

Thanks Allah, alhamdulillah. I feel relieve and can smile better since. I know I'm not perfect, I always lost even I hold the map, with lots of signs, I'm still lost! But your love bring me back and "always offer me a way" to keep me on the right tract. For You, He who listen, my praised and my thanks for this great day! :)

And my dad call just now. Remember the "tiang lampu'' I wrote around raya time? It's put up on my parent's lawn today. And already light-up! :D It's my 'secret wish' for the light to be there. I hope it's continuously 'lighting' my life and beneficial to my parents. Once my parent's lawn is dark and I'm concern about their safety. I hope the light will guarding them while I can't do it since I'm away here. And another reason is I don't mind paying for it monthly, because I think I'm able to do it now :)  

And.....my mat top make minimum noise now then before! I get the idea to just oiled it! :D Because today I run straight to Ikano All IT but they don't have it. I'm planning to buy online when suddenly this idea crosses my mind while waiting for my newly bought burner check for warranty. Just now I rushing home, open it again, clean it again, oiled it, put it back, press the power button -- howyehhhhhh!!! NO MORE weird sound!!! :D

Alhamdulillah... :D                  

if tomorrow never come

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

*So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes* 




i realised something, even if you are considered so perfect by some people ~you are handsome, beautiful, famous, intelligent, nice, kind etc and so many people want and willing to be with you. but you will still have at least one rejection from someone you really want to be with! and you hurt by the fact...

why eh? we still chase for something we like, even thou it doesn't like us back and out there there's a lot willing and wanting to be with us?

is it called "honesty"

*i wrote this after listening to kyuhyun ~ 7 years of love. fyi kyuhyun is a member of super junior :)

what's in the name

aku sangat bodoh atau sangat baik hati? berdasarkan pengalaman lalu, dia memang tak boleh dipercayai. dan dari ceritanya yang sangat desperate, semua kawan-kawan lain (kawan baiknya yang lain!), tak boleh tolong dia sebab ada masalah sendiri. jadi kenapa aku masih tolong dia?

aku bukan tak kenal dia, dialah satu-satunya orang dalam dunia ni yang neneknya boleh mati dan hidup semula! semuanya sebab tak nak bayar hutang. bukan banyak pun, 100 je. tp untuk orang macam aku yang bukan bergaji 3000 atau kerja dengan singapore airlines, 100 tu banyak! macam-macam aku boleh beli! atau sekurang-kurangnya menabung untuk masa-masa susah, yang mana aku bukan macam dia. boleh call minta tolong 'desperately'...

sebenarnya aku tak faham dia. mungkin aku kenal dia, tapi tak faham dia. dan sejak kejadian 'nenek' dia tu, aku jadi lebih tak nak amik tahu. tapi takdir disuratkan, aku masih jumpa dia. dan masih sanggup tolong orang macam dia...

dia memang totally bersandar pada rupa. mujur juga aku bukan orang cantik (mungkin si comel saja! haha). dan kerja dia memang nak dia selalu cantik. tapi cantik semata, otak kureng...aku bukan merendahkan dia tapi menganalisa kelebihan dan kekurangan manusia. tuhan adil, kan? dan dengan cantik yang dia ada, dia boleh memilih mana-mana lelaki (yang juga tak berapa bijak aku rasa!), janji kaya, untuk sponsor dia.

honestly aku x suka nak campur hidup peribadi dia, tapi apa yang dia buat umpama cari tali letak kat leher sendiri! sabotage diri sendiri! aku pun kadang-kadang sabotage (tak sengaja!) diri sendiri dengan buat keputusan yang merapu-rapu. tapi aku rasa dia langsung tak ada back-up. memang hidup yang seolah tak ada hujungnya...

aku kesian dia sebenarnya, mesti ada sesuatu yang dia cari-cari atau pun satu tempat yang dia ingin berhenti. tapi semua yang dia kenal setakat ni tak membantu ke arah tu. dan aku mungkin salah seorang yang biarkan dia tenggelam timbul hadapi hidup sorang-sorang. 

so aku tolong dia malam ni, lagi sekali, dengan harapan, supaya dia tak tenggelam timbul dengan duit rm7 dalam poket sambil menunggu dato' hantar cash! dan aku harap dato' tu tak 'mati' on the way datang hotel macam yang terjadi pada 'nenek' dia. sebab duit tu adalah saving aku, yang skip study semester ni sebab nak back up financially kalau-kalau aku tak dapat-dapat kerja!

honestly, kalau dia tak bayar 500 aku kali ni, ini adalah yang terakhir aku kenal atau jumpa dia! lepas ni, kalau susah pergilah telifon polis atau bomba. aku mungkin tak sudi lagi mendengar atau pun cuba memahami!

aku pernah search buku makna nama-nama bayi. makna nama aku ialah 

'yang memberi/membawa kebahagiaan'

*atau mungkin aku patut tukar CRT ni???