aku dan rumput

Balik dari penang petang rabu lalu. walau pun semua terasa excited pada awalnya, rupanya ditengah tak begitu mengujakan! akan kah sekali lagi, penang menjadi tanda aras 'sesuatu' harus 'behenti' ? ah! aku benci penang!

belum pun tugas selesai, quotation untuk second round dah sampi ke tangan AGM. nampaknya ke penang lagi, paling awal bulan depan..kenapa penang? kenapa? tak ada tempat lain mungkin dalam dunia ni! aku dah pergi sejauh beijing, tapi penang juga penamat cerita!

*kenapa salahkan penang? bukan penang yang bersalah...ish

kylie merajuk pagi tadi! bateri kong! aduh..sedih betul! sorry, mommy lupa bateri kamu dah 4 tahun! tak apalah, bukan salah kamu. kamu tetap yang terbaik, kerana rosak di tempat parking rumah mommy. kalau kamu rosak ditengah jalan? atau tengah malam buta? tapi kamu memang tak pernah senakal itu...kamu layak dipuji :)

tapi aku sedey juga, kerana perlu bergantung pada orang lain! aku benci! benci kerana tak memiliki sesuatu yang dipanggil kepunyaan!

terasa nak demam, rushing dari broga pagi ahad, petangnya ke penang, dan balik dari penang sibuk mahu siapkan report. tapi ofis baru harus dilengkapkan dan dikemas minggu ini juga! dengan mac pc yang aku tak pernah pakai, tentu kerja jadi lambat sedangkan aku mahukan secepat mungkin report.

malamnya diajak meneman kawan menghantar persalinan, walau sudah di'hint' berkali-kali yang aku penat dan sudah sedikit bengong, dia mahu juga pergi. nasib baik, doa dimakbulkan, last minit, dia kata tak jadi :) dan aku tidur terus, menenangkan sakit kepala yang berdenyut-denyut!

sejak beberapa minggu lepas, aku diharamkan membawa atau menyiapkan kerja ofis di rumah! haha sengaja mahu berehat. tadi ada kawan bertanya, ko demam ke? mata ko bengkak. haha belum lagi..baru terasa nak demam jek :) i'm still strong :) *ayat-ayat berbau bengong!

dalam banyak perkara, dalam sibuk-sibuk aturcara; sebenarnya aku sedang memikir satu je perkara. haruskah aku pegang 'rumput hijau' ini hingga ke akhirnya? kerana aku mungkin tak akan jumpa rumput hijau lain, kerana aku tak boleh berpatah balik, kerana aku perlu teruskan perjalanan hingga ke hujung. walau pun 'rumput hijau' ini 'tajam' dan selalu buat tangan aku luka...akan berbaloikah ia?  

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Mari mengira!

memula tak tau nak tulis apa..lepas tu teringat sesuatu...oh! terus taw nak tulis apa..haha :)

Meh saya tulis lagu ni ahahaha jangan nakal-nakal, jangan overwork, cepat-cepat balik! sori tak sempat nak cakap jalan bebaik, jatuh bangun la sendiri! haha sebab hari tu ada hal, hal tak berapa best sangat. ah, why we have to be jauh-dekat-jauh? ish!

tak decide lagi, tapi probability besar lah juga. and again, the prospect of might loosing you forever is the main reason i felt so difficult to move away. some say, lightning won't strike twice, at the same place. thus i'm so worried...!

anyway, this one for you. i'll work that things out later..don't worry, gambatte there! :)



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project list

Yup..been actively writings currently. Try to making times and build back the habits, and i'm not so hardcore busy recently. Busy-body, maybe? haha

At office, i'm prove to be tokey-kedai-online once again, when i'm catalyst for the deeper search for the thought-still-not-arrived server cd for our new office! it just weird for me, if after almost one month ordering, your stuff still not arrive and you didn't do anything about it? hmm..

so i become busy-body, and since i got my boss e-bay log in id etc i try do my own study. walah! obviously the item arrived last month! we could supposedly move in to our new office as early as march, but my boss also forget that he already received the item! and since he was away for umrah, he thought the item is still not arrived! and the network guy also didn't do his study, just sit and wait..

it become bit kecoh, about two days, calling my boss to check on, my EL friend who receive the item etc lastly the cd is at my boss house, still nicely pack in brown paper. hais...my boss must be too busy before he went umrah, till he forget everything!

being busy-body as well, i make my own decision design for our new mart! haha i'm actually waiting for my boss to comment, but seem no reply, and i can't proceed with costing etc, so i make my move. fyi, i'm not the type of reporting every steps i take to my boss, to get credit whatever, i just want the job done. right or wrong, decide later. anyway, i know my boss must be really busy already, so why they hire me, if i kept bother him about some small steps?

so far, that is how i move. i made my plan success first then only show to him..currently, i do another blog for our kedai-online, start building backlink, because i found that people are not staying in our online store longer than 5 seconds! and visitor also decreasing! since my assistant now busying himself with the physical shop and his new job scope, i think i should do something on my own, to maintain the online-shop. it's easier, but very tricky especially when giving out quotation for re-seller.

honest say, i'm trying to double profit for my company, but it also mean burden for re-seller. especially those from JB, Kelantan, Sabah/Sarawak. I understand there is a demand, but due to high transportation cost, the end price must go very high and effecting the end user. i think it's best also that we have 'distribution' channel, so they can monitor best way and economical way, to distribute our products. but can my assistant think like this? because so far, i never see his calculation on quoting re-seller price..

it's tricky, but yeah, i like it :) it made me think, be creative. find a solution, win-win. i enjoy business due to this power. i can make decision, right or wrong, alter it somewhere, apply again and see the outcome. it's nice :)

business is like solving puzzle, you try to match each tiles until it fit, but the picture is still imperfect! ~ san

Perlahan

Hari yang perlahan, walau pun tangan dan otak lincah berfikir itu dan ini!

Tangan buat sambungan BP bahagian ke-2! Mengacau ketenangan si otak, kerana banyak sungguh detail yang penting tak ada! Hah! Rupanya selama ini hanya gambar-gambar yang macam best sahaja yang disumbang si luxury baby! Akhirnya, minggu depan boss balik umrah, akuuuuu juga kena siapkan!

Lalu hati pun menemui doktornya...

Tangan juga memutar steering kylie comel yang enjinnya terasa semakin berat. Owh! Mommy belum mampu beli Mitsubishi Evo atau Honda Civic lagi! Sabarlah ye sayang...mommy tau, kamu dah jumpa boifren BMW idaman kamu. Siap dating lagi yer..x pe, kalau BMW 5-series, mommy boleh pertimbangkan jadi menantu! ahahaha

Insiden yang mengacau otak lagi, lalu terbayang-bayang tandu empat tayar yang baru..berwarna ???? no plate www?? haha Otak diracuni angan-angan dek hasutan si hati!

Tangan malam ni baru selesai satu lagi projek bb. Tak begitu teruja mahu memasang setiap satu, sekadar mengisi masa dengan perkara yang melalikan hati dari berdenyut sakit, supaya ia tak perlu jumpa doktor lagi esok. Dan otak pun perlahan-lahan merancang untuk beli paint/marker bermacam warna untuk melengkapkan projek bb.

Hah..siap! :)

my equation

Ok, today is a mixed feeling. Again. As usual.

At work, still lots to fight for, but i'm happy to lend my extra hand. i used with doing more than one task at hand! it's in the blood. my mind is sharper when i'm busy! just they don't see it..

at times, i felt there is no need to show my thirst for task at hands, but then i felt sucks with those unrelated emails and conversations which are not related to me! it come with 's' sign of plurality! please note. but just when i think i'm free, there will always task arriving at bay!

what make me confused is why everyone seem so busy, while i'm not?

so i'm looking back at my 'empty' yearly plan, which i purposely emptied since last year to concentrate on the new job. but now i felt it's less satisfying! i feel too free..thus i'm planning to take on many more task in the Q2 of 2012. which mean more things to do, more money to make, more time being use, less free time, less nonsense in my life..

pretty much jealous with someone who seem very rigid at making money and doing things they like! why i can't be that rigid?

so i already got some ideas/plan/project at hands. will be finalized asap and try to execute them as thirst as a thirsty man in the dessert! haha serious, i should learn to be as rigid as those people, then only i'll grow up much wiser and responsible!

so, looking forward to complete my life equation which seem imbalance since last year, making room for adjustment. i hope the room is done now, coz i need to balance back the equation! :)

san = study + alive + ruN (aka working)

needless to say

Stupid!!! 6x

*Once, my Ex-Pa-Yap utter this out of his temper. I know he can't stand 'em anymore. Till i have to stop him and regain his conscious.

This time, it's my turn. I can't stand it anymore!

can butter really flies?

Don't know i have lots of butterflies in my stomach!! Honestly!

I got stomach pain last Friday, causing me to take emergency leave from office. It caused me a light-fever as well. But even after 3 days, the pain still wont go away...hemm..maybe some kind of indigestion. i'll wait few more days :x

Funny part is, i'm even sicker now and think lots more butterflies infesting in my stomach! Because i finally met you! :D It take me few hours after that to settle down, i have to drove all the way circling from K.D to P.H back to K.D thru LDP and then ELITE and NKVE, sent kylie for service, then sent her bath, to make the butterflies calm down. I even have nausea, everytime i think 'we just met'?!

OMG!!

I thought i must be so chicken-out! HO3

*For every part of me that wants you, every pieces back away ~ why with it? I feel mixed. Confused. (this maybe the caused of the nausea!) Overwhelm as well as overjoy. Bitter and sweet. Like the menu i ate, cappuccino and smooties-fruities fish which is sweet and sour! arghh..never know i was that shy!! HAHAHA



ok, i post two song..showing how confused i'm ~ still! *sigh