Tuesday, 11 October 2011

tagline

So tomorrow will be the day. The brainwash day! I'm surely nervous since I'll chair the meeting tomorrow with whatever findings I have. Hopefully it's enough information to be presented!

Apart from that, tonight will be my third night sleep-less to do some extra modification to what I have at hand. I hope by next week, or practically this Friday, when the brainwash session end, everything wrap-up nicely! And I can move on with pride from there. Carrying out what's been documented, drawing out the early plan as schedule on a daily basis!

Huuu..can't wait! But it's not even started yet! Arghhhh....

It's kinda good for me because I'm given this opportunity to do what I like. Management! Just hate the early stage...hihihi And the unwanted 'sound effect' (soseh-soseh!). Anyway, dispute, is something I have to learn how to deal with professionally, if I want to be mature! kakaaka So no more run and hide! (*No more ms little sunshine...)

Ops! It's my surprise turn today to deliver some 'story' or tazkirah after asar prayer today! My turn is suppose to be tomorrow but since Business unit all went out tomorrow, it's bring forward today! Aaaa...

I'm blur a while because I don't know where and how to start but then went smooth since I already plan since last week. At least I plan on what subject will I share with the rest of the office! I choose my recent read book, How Starbuck Save My Life by Micheal Gill. I love the book and I felt closed to the real story inside, therefore I can easily understand the story flow and why I like it so much.

It's about Micheal, the writer, who discover a new world working with Starbuck. The working environment which so please him and very much different from the corporate world he used to be. The life lesson along his daily job, as someone who drink latte to someone who serve it. It's like he fall from grace. But I like the spirit (or phobia of being fired again!) that push him. It's his pushing factor!

He made it and make friends out of it. Real friends who care about him. He get back his children whom he once take less care since he so immersed with his job. He might not become 'Master of the Universe' again but he live peacefully in his small apartment now then his 16-bedroom mansion where he grew up.

The lesson here is 'you are what you think about yourself'. Micheal know he's already old and working at Starbuck is the only choice he have. He need to support at least he, himself. So he try to beat the odd. He brave the register machine thou he so afraid of numbers. He take pride in his job and make gesture with his customer and workmate. He have good attitude besides his fall from grace. He try to be positive thou sometimes situation seem not at his side.

Truth is, life is like that. We will not be at the same place forever. Must have up and down, so you'll appreciate what you have. But only if you want to change for the better. There's some people who quit after the very first try they failed. But I believe, lots more people keep on trying. Gambatte! This is what we all want, someone who dare to fail, just to raise again!

Wow! I speak like a motivator now! Haha Anyway I consider the 'soseh-soseh' as my challenge here. Good, I have competitor! So I will not easily feel comfortable with what I have. Anyway, I'm only diploma holder from UiTM compared to them whose x-MMU or x-MSU. I din't attend weekly Women Business Club. I don't have siblings driving Mercedes because they do MLM bla bla bla

But anyway, I once have my own failed mushroom 'factory', my failed MLM investment, my already-go-to- site-visit-level to open a fish pond, a laughed idea to have a cow and poultry farm next to my house bla bla bla

Best is, Go Sandy, Go! Go reach out what you want!



Erk...But I don't remember involve in cheerleading! HAHAHA

soseh-soseh

O-o..got nothing to say! Lately seem so slow or maybe I'm a slow thinker lately..haha Still, there's a lot for me to do and catch up with, but I seem too free to care of what will happen if I don't catch it up! Miss my old-self who is so spirited to achieve lots in her life...!

Been wandering around some potential supplier and competitor for the project since last Friday. For me it's a great opportunity to know and see what's around. Get some real input and so I have more strong vision of what our project should be.

But today heard some 'soseh-soseh' that what I do is costing. Sure it's a cost. Even if you sit on your bum all day and talking big about cost IS a cost! Think your pay for one day means for what? The company invest in me and I must do something to raise their investment value..To cut cost doesn't necessarily mean you stay indoor! C'mon, we're business division people...! Never heard of "no pain, no gain" aa?

Consider what I do as doing some research. Research is very necessary in planning. Planning mean you must have lots of input. Where you'll get your input if not going out? Yes, internet help a lot but for the past few weeks since I join in, since our 'melepas batuk di tangga bookmark' passed around; is there any feedback? Anyone call back to advertise freely with us? NO!

We're team member the last time I check, but when I ask you to do some rough plan for our web sales promotion 2012, you point me out to do it myself. When I ask to create a sample point card we'll use to woe customer, you say wait until confirm. So this is the dilemma of "pure breed" company...everything wait..wait...wait...then talk big as if you know so well and other's don't.

I tell you what, why don't you take over then? You sound so know-how about everything..you so great since you attend "women business club" discussion weekly. C'mon, you already screaming for help with the task at your hand as if the task cost you your own money! Still fuss about other people's project cost? Better you draft my instruction to plan the sales promo for next year, it is better than worrying about my project cost!  

I try to play good, but don't play-play..I can be means too!

Sunday, 9 October 2011

shopping dot net

hahahahahaa...what a lovely weekend!! Doing shopping for two most wanted item without even have to drive kylie out on the road..! ngeh3

I'm buying stuff via online. Been some times not involve in this kind of habit but this weekend :D Spend like most of the day scrolling over the net for what's best until finally decided to click 'buy' on those two items. Hopefully both satisfying as their display...

Will be involve with online business myself, very soon, I think today experience confirm back to me how it feels buying something without have to see or touch or smell the real stuff. I think some item can, but obviously especially for women, most item not suitable sold online! hehe we're fussy creature, ok?

So what or how to woe potential customer then? For me, picture speak louder then all the words since I hate the fine-print sometimes! Apart from that pricing and the delivery cost. It's just not worthy and obviously cheating if the delivery cost is more than RM10 because the min 500g (first below 2KG) parcel by Pos Malaysia is only RM3.50 (check the rate here) http://www.pos.com.my/pos/services/fast_mail/service/domestic/nextday.aspx

The price is something hard to justified unless you really lucky like me! Because I found a website selling the same item at twice the price on the other website! hmmm....something not really nice there..

But it's up to you. As I say, some item is definitely ok to be sold online. While some is still not. But who know, once you have built a stronger relationship with the seller, agree that after some trade with them, they can be trusted; why not? It save petrol, time, and it will make you even lazier! haha

This is what I do usually before shop for something. I will study the item first. What's the spec, the price range, where can I easily get it, compare with other spec if necessary etc I must made myself clear and totally understand the item first, then only I decided to buy. It's a long process but it's give me fully satisfaction.

That's why it's hard to resist once I decided to buy something, since I already know by heart about the item! hehe

Friday, 7 October 2011

queen of my heart

I'm happy today, I want to write more than one post! yieehhhheeee...

I miss my mom today, lately and everyday lately. Don't get the chances to talk to her yet, thou keep on making mind notes to call her after work etc Anyway just a thoughts from sermon this morning; I hope if it's time for my parents to leave this world, we, all their children, will take charge of the task bathing and preparing them, right till their body laid to rest. NOT anyone else. NOT our neighbors. Not our uncle, auntie, cousin etc

I hope we all brave enough, care enough, strong enough; to act as our final obligation as their children to them. It's sure saddest thing on life, but I hope we all realized it is our last respect to two most influential people in our life whom we owe so much and can never repay.

If my dad is my hero, my mom is the queen of my heart! :D   




I wish all mommy in the world,
a happy, healthy and ocean of patience in carrying their job as real-human molder! 
Especially my mom, love you, muah3 :D 

Thursday, 6 October 2011

He who listen

Arghhh...it's turn to write in full English! Ok-ok I'll try my best and right now, I'm trying to write in proper English. Another thing to do with my work now :D

I went to work this morning with uncomfortable feeling in my heart due to few unsettle issues. The first is sure the money lending thing! I hate talk about this cause it's only making me mad!! And another thing is my Mat Top. The clicking-weird-sound detected. It's from the fan.

Last night after work I quickly rushed to Giant and buy some PC tools like all size screwdriver (31-in-1 Electro Screwdriver Set! hah..don't play-play ha...!). I like the tools because it's so handy and useful. And one thing you should know about me is, I'm salivating by the thoughts of unscrewing with tools like this!! HAHA Hey! I like DIY ok..

Without very much hesitation I brave myself (which is my very first time!) opening the back of any laptop! The voice of the techie-girl in my office says "Berani ke kak? Component dalam tu kecik-kecik la..!" play aloud in my mind, but they can't deny my burning desire to find out what really happen behind my lappy and from where is that weird sound comes from!

TADA...the fan is so dusty and dirty it's like a never-scrub-toilet-wall!! Euww...it's mossy I think! Because the dust is green, not only black! HAHAHAAHA (Euwww at the same time!). I carefully take it off and clean it till shiny! Erm..kidding-lah! I just clean it, till no more dust, wipe every blade and the edges etc

I put it back, then start mat top in full hope the problem settle. But the clicking sound is still there as if my effort cleaning and scrubbing the 'moss' are wasteful. Ok, I give up. I'll just go and buy a new fan tomorrow. After that, yeay -- mat top will operate in silence again..!

So today I almost thought about not coming to work because I want to go find new fan for mat top and settle the issue. I was practically like this when there is any problem with any of my possession I'm closed with! Closed here mean I'm attached to it almost all the time ler..like my kylie, mat top, handphone (the only thing without name yet - caused I plan to sell it right after I bought it. So I forget to name it..! haha Sorry!)

That is why today I come to work with pretty heavy face, like my kids got fever! When my kids is my mat top, a laptop actually! ahahah Plus with the other problem I stated above, my face become even heavy. My heart still bleed with the thoughts about that 'moron creature'! bla bla bla I bump with the same ustaz I met on my first day at Ansar on the door, but say nothing until during the ceramah..

So here is the sweetness in Him. Today's topic is about being a better muslim and as soon as the ustaz start his sermon, everything ustaz say is very much related to me, what had just happened, how I feel about it or how I feel little when I have no place to turn to! At some point, I almost cry because it's like 'someone' console your hot-hardened-scared-heart by a caring and tender words. But best of all, I never let anyone know how painful it was, but He knew about it and sooth my pain! Just a day after! How quick He was..!

One of the point is 'forgive" and another point is "let it go" (redha). To 'let it go' after such painful is sure very difficult but He always there and always listen. He always fair and always kind. Just let Him deal with anyone who try to make trouble to you. Consider it as a test, insyaAllah He will give plenty more better things if we open our heart and let Him, the Master, do as He please. There is a great rewards for our patience and remember He loves it when His slaves ask and bend down on Him.

Thanks Allah, alhamdulillah. I feel relieve and can smile better since. I know I'm not perfect, I always lost even I hold the map, with lots of signs, I'm still lost! But your love bring me back and "always offer me a way" to keep me on the right tract. For You, He who listen, my praised and my thanks for this great day! :)

And my dad call just now. Remember the "tiang lampu'' I wrote around raya time? It's put up on my parent's lawn today. And already light-up! :D It's my 'secret wish' for the light to be there. I hope it's continuously 'lighting' my life and beneficial to my parents. Once my parent's lawn is dark and I'm concern about their safety. I hope the light will guarding them while I can't do it since I'm away here. And another reason is I don't mind paying for it monthly, because I think I'm able to do it now :)  

And.....my mat top make minimum noise now then before! I get the idea to just oiled it! :D Because today I run straight to Ikano All IT but they don't have it. I'm planning to buy online when suddenly this idea crosses my mind while waiting for my newly bought burner check for warranty. Just now I rushing home, open it again, clean it again, oiled it, put it back, press the power button -- howyehhhhhh!!! NO MORE weird sound!!! :D

Alhamdulillah... :D                  

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

if tomorrow never come

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

*So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes* 





i realised something, even if you are considered so perfect by some people ~you are handsome, beautiful, famous, intelligent, nice, kind etc and so many people want and willing to be with you. but you will still have at least one rejection from someone you really want to be with! and you hurt by the fact...

why eh? we still chase for something we like, even thou it doesn't like us back and out there there's a lot willing and wanting to be with us?

is it called "honesty"

*i wrote this after listening to kyuhyun ~ 7 years of love. fyi kyuhyun is a member of super junior :)

what's in the name

aku sangat bodoh atau sangat baik hati? berdasarkan pengalaman lalu, dia memang tak boleh dipercayai. dan dari ceritanya yang sangat desperate, semua kawan-kawan lain (kawan baiknya yang lain!), tak boleh tolong dia sebab ada masalah sendiri. jadi kenapa aku masih tolong dia?

aku bukan tak kenal dia, dialah satu-satunya orang dalam dunia ni yang neneknya boleh mati dan hidup semula! semuanya sebab tak nak bayar hutang. bukan banyak pun, 100 je. tp untuk orang macam aku yang bukan bergaji 3000 atau kerja dengan singapore airlines, 100 tu banyak! macam-macam aku boleh beli! atau sekurang-kurangnya menabung untuk masa-masa susah, yang mana aku bukan macam dia. boleh call minta tolong 'desperately'...

sebenarnya aku tak faham dia. mungkin aku kenal dia, tapi tak faham dia. dan sejak kejadian 'nenek' dia tu, aku jadi lebih tak nak amik tahu. tapi takdir disuratkan, aku masih jumpa dia. dan masih sanggup tolong orang macam dia...

dia memang totally bersandar pada rupa. mujur juga aku bukan orang cantik (mungkin si comel saja! haha). dan kerja dia memang nak dia selalu cantik. tapi cantik semata, otak kureng...aku bukan merendahkan dia tapi menganalisa kelebihan dan kekurangan manusia. tuhan adil, kan? dan dengan cantik yang dia ada, dia boleh memilih mana-mana lelaki (yang juga tak berapa bijak aku rasa!), janji kaya, untuk sponsor dia.

honestly aku x suka nak campur hidup peribadi dia, tapi apa yang dia buat umpama cari tali letak kat leher sendiri! sabotage diri sendiri! aku pun kadang-kadang sabotage (tak sengaja!) diri sendiri dengan buat keputusan yang merapu-rapu. tapi aku rasa dia langsung tak ada back-up. memang hidup yang seolah tak ada hujungnya...

aku kesian dia sebenarnya, mesti ada sesuatu yang dia cari-cari atau pun satu tempat yang dia ingin berhenti. tapi semua yang dia kenal setakat ni tak membantu ke arah tu. dan aku mungkin salah seorang yang biarkan dia tenggelam timbul hadapi hidup sorang-sorang. 

so aku tolong dia malam ni, lagi sekali, dengan harapan, supaya dia tak tenggelam timbul dengan duit rm7 dalam poket sambil menunggu dato' hantar cash! dan aku harap dato' tu tak 'mati' on the way datang hotel macam yang terjadi pada 'nenek' dia. sebab duit tu adalah saving aku, yang skip study semester ni sebab nak back up financially kalau-kalau aku tak dapat-dapat kerja!

honestly, kalau dia tak bayar 500 aku kali ni, ini adalah yang terakhir aku kenal atau jumpa dia! lepas ni, kalau susah pergilah telifon polis atau bomba. aku mungkin tak sudi lagi mendengar atau pun cuba memahami!

aku pernah search buku makna nama-nama bayi. makna nama aku ialah 
'yang memberi/membawa kebahagiaan'




*atau mungkin aku patut tukar CRT ni???