life is about making choices

Hari ni pergi keje dengan perasaan bimbang! ekekeke sebab financial part tak crystal clear lagi..last friday boss suda minta..aaaaaAAAaAAa..sorry, aku spend the weekend figure out things..tapi can't come out with solution. Well, nice..i try thou :)

So tadi, aku discuss dengan AGM yang macam anchor kat ansar. Aku suka discuss dengan dia ni, meeting dengan dia kat shah alam hari tu kali pertama aku jumpa dia. Tapi aku dah suka cara dia yang straight forward, semangat, jelas dan teliti. Wah! She's  another idol...haha She make me clear and support me internally untuk come out with something best!

Oleh itu, aku akan gunakan kreativiti yang bit tumpul ni untuk come out with solution. Simple but thoughtful. Supported with data yang ada at hands..Lagi satu, aku suka discuss dengan dia sebab dia akan block schedule untuk meeting. Tak distracted so aku yang meeting dengan dia pun boleh solve problem aku instead of carried away. Ada orang yang gelabah atau busy sangat, sampai aku cakap lain, dia cakap lain..last x selesai masalah..

Sorry yer boss, saya bukan tak nak discuss dengan boss. Saya jumpa boss untuk final decision jek. Discussion ni I prefer jumpa AGM since dia lebih free. hehehe

So, in works memang banyak nak kejar..Aku kena prepare a step forward before the team, since I'm guiding. I need to know more before they know. Prepare. So I'm heading. So far, no problem. 'Webmasta' added dengan experiences dia mmg banyak bagi step by step guide based from her experiences. So very helpful :) Plus sebab kitorang sama-sama freshmen, easy to get along..

Pagi dah bimbang dengan boss, tapi lega sebab boss tak masuk. Jumpa client. And dah settle dengan AGM. Petang si soseh plak. Dia nak tau bila boleh dapat mini studio macamlah mende tu important ingredient. Aiiii geram pula aku dengar! Dia cakap dah lama dah, nape x sampai2? Ko ingat beli pakai duit aku ye? Mentang boss kaya, 500 tu kecik je la e?

Tak pe, sabar separuh dari iman. akakaaka Aku jawab, sabar..boss tengah view. Memanglah aku ada access account ebay tu furnish dengan payment detail, tapi itu bukan duit aku yer..Boss tak cakap pun, ok beli mana-mana, tak kisah. So kenalah aku bertindak sikit bijak. By the way, mini studio tu bukanlah cream of the cake. It's just cherry buat perhiasan sebab gambar product lama masih boleh pakai. Sabar yer, makcik..

Speaking of sabar juga, maybe dah jadi habit company 'pure blood' untuk point out mende tak penting while on meeting. And instead of discussing the important things, they prefer to focus on small thing which I repeatedly say 'not to worry'. Contoh pasal saiz mini studio, it takes good 5-10 minutes imagining the size eventhou aku dah cakap i dah proposed another bigger size. I  brought up the matter as comparison in price and physical outlook. Not that I want to buy the said size! Tapi semua orang sibuk argue and imagine juga size kecik tu sekecik mana!

Pelik.

Sama macam masa meeting web hari tu. Semua orang sibuk bercerita tentang pengalaman diorang buat programming. Ada ke aku buat interview pasal tu? Kalau korang ada experience pun, aku tak akan suruh, since kan dah ada webmaster. She's obviously master on the field. So I don't need to 'interview' other 'candidates' rite?

My assistant is bit blur-blur. Sayang! Belajar kat oversea tapi balik Malaysia kerja sendiri. So tak ada experience kerja dengan orang, and agak bimbang sebab dia start dengan pure blood ~ less professional. Even thou aku start jauh dari bawah, tapi aku bersyukur dan berterima kasih juga kat company-company aku yang lama. Since aku banyak belajar makna 'bersaing' dan 'professional' dari diorang :) See, my assistant muka-nak-nangis bila AGM minta report to be emailed end of the day. Hope, he learn a lot later..aku punya report pun dia blom bagi lagi dari last week!  

my advice! :D

So, why life is about making choices? Sebab kita memang ada banyak decision nak kena buat. Sometime we get tired of being careful, so we slacking. Obviously, it's our life that we mess it! Tapi, be positive. It's only because you know dark, that you realized you need light. Few wrong decision, few wrong choices, will led you to correct and better choice! :) Don't worry...you'll be wiser along with time.

Another news about my ex-colleague - hospitalized. Cancer. Hate the fact that more healthy people I know is getting sick! Phobia. But I hope, she's doing fine. Hope she's strong enough and fight to the end :) She's the iron-lady I used to look up to when in imt. Chayo2!!

Extra ~ perasaan mixed with bimbang and geram. Maybe stress out sebab sometime aku rasa I'm doing this 'alone'. Especially bila ada orang seperti makcik soseh. Choose side? Afraid too! Sebab aku prefer stand on my own ground. If I'm good, then I'm.

Cuma sometime even in one team, I feel alone...maybe I'm feeling low to be compared with luxury baby! Pasal BP tu lar..tapi today, I'm a step further since aku dah go to financial part - cream of the cake! slurp..