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good news, bad news, daily, weekly etc *its about 2am when i started to writes. tired and sleepy. but also happy since 'baju raya' bought already! smileeee..thanks to wani, for the company :D

i heard news about ex-papa. ah! so sad...he must be very 'hijau' aka 'hulk' as i used to know him. whenever people resign, that is his way of coping with the lost...trying to stop people from leaving, convince people all the benefits they can offer, but sadly its not satisfying enough. then exit is the best way...

i'm not leaving with my heart full of anger. actually i still love imt, and joining new company is bit tough at the beginning. for the first month, i'm still attached to imt! sometimes even hoping and dreaming to join in back! but later once cool down a bit, i think it's ok to move on. imt is a past, let it go...thou now still searching for some 'peaceful' place, i must always remember to be careful of what i'm wishing for. it might turned real and then i might not need it!

i thank my ex-papa for accepting me to imt on 2009 thus save me and my future from downfall like the economic recession on that time and the closing down of my first serious job i take after grad. and i will always remember, that i cant focus during the interview - after i join in imt (*i said i need to see family in hospital, but i went for an interview instead!), because of his caring advise to drive safe and careful since the road is slippery after rain earlier that morning!

how can you doing bad for someone doing you good, rite? it's just unfair. i didn't get the job obviously, and so that time i'm so sure, imt is 'really' my place!

but time pass, i'm change as the needs and wants. its not that i become big-headed, but i think its time to change, for the better. so i finally voice out to him. first few lines -- almost tearful! see, its not that i hate imt. just little bit disappointed. either being useful or being used! i appreciate his time for listening thou he always busy as hell that time. and my hr congrats me for my bravery the next few days! haha i don't know where i get the strength thou! (what? rebellious? hahaha! that's it!) 

so when i heard the 'autumn season' happening in imt now, with most of the batches of people from my time, send in their goodbye letter; the image of my ex-papa rumbling over old drawings and housekeeping DCC room all of a sudden on razif last day, stay back with loges for handover until 3am in the morning, he suddenly ask anyone do petty and stupid things like compiling his travel claims - which he usually do it himself, he brags about every petty things around the office during every last day of other resignee's etc

the image is a sad skinny man, hoping to be heard, hoping to shared the joy and tears of imt, hoping to be understood that he also cant stop much of management's decision, hoping that someone will stay next to him thru all the tick and thin of the company, hoping that he can make everyone understood imt aspirations, hoping that everyone is as hardworking and inhumane like him, bloody loyal like him to the company etc

i miss my ex-papa! hope he's not working too hard, he's already too skinny! haha too much pressure, he sometimes make jokes only he laugh at! i wish him a great ocean of patience to face all this trouble. i wish him a feather-weight task so he can carry his duty calmly. i wish him everything that can make him easy to solve all the trouble!

because he once, help me solve mine! and quietly i regard him as my mentor..(*dont tell him!)

....and suddenly i miss his brags to cross out recycle paper with pen to avoid confusion! :D